Good morning peoples... This is George. Obviously.

Ok, so how do people keep on getting my phone number? I just recieved a call from a person that literally disgusts me, asking me if I can somehow contact our one common friend, who's not answering his cellphone. Like... WOW! WHO THE FUCK GAVE YOU MY NUMBER? I hate you social relationships...

Well, I already said good morning, but I'd like to clarify this... It is NOT a good morning. It has not been a good night and it has not been a good week. Not for me, not for those close to me, not even for those not close to me. Well, actually, I don't know about that last one, but the rest is true. I seriously hate to break this to you, but it turns out that I'm not a normal person. I don't know if I actually need professional help, and to be frank I don't think I do, but, if you read every post up to now, you'll see that those 3 months in total I've been posting since I've created this blog have been one big pile of shit. Is it me? In the end, is it possible that I'm suffering from depression? Meh... Actually no, that can't be true, I'm just overreacting (as usual).

But truth be told, yesterday was pretty fucking sucky. And this whole week as well. Which of the two should I start with first though? I think I'll take things from the start. So, this week began pretty ok. We were getting ready for our cosplay and everything, kind of in a rush really, but confident that we would make it, since the big parts of our preparations were finished. So we only had to focus on the details, which we did. However it seemed natural to Marilena, to overwork herself, preparing costumes for other people as well... Yeah, in the end she flipped out, we yelled at each other (kinda), and didn't do the cosplay. We did make up of course, but by then there was no time. So we went to the party dressed as normal otakus. Kinda... Anyways, we'll talk about the party afterwards.

The stuff started going downhill for this week, as soon as it started. Have I told you all about Helen and Fani(sp?) stuffs? No, I don't think I have. So ok, everything's cool, right? I've got my friends, we hang out, have fun, we even bought the fucking Guitar Hero: Metallica for ps3. Well, to make a long, and boring to type story, short, there is this girl in my japanese class, that is really pretty and everything. However it's really weird talking to her. I get all uncomfortable and everything and all we ever talk about is like, really stupid things, like music and anime. Well, those aren't really stupid things, but it seems to be all that we can talk about. On the other hand I've only been talking to her for like 2 weeks now, so maybe this is natural. But anyways, about one and a half week ago, she added me on myspace, and sent me her msn. We've been talking ever since, for like 2 or 3 hours and I think she's actually interested. Now, let me hit the pause button for you. Just when she added me, after 2 days, I had already reached the conclusion that's it's too uncomfortable and that I was too afraid to do something with her. (Also, nothing was certain, she could be looking for a friend or something). So, during the JLPT me and Marilena kinda found this girl that seemed real friendly and everything and we talked during breaks and everything. So, I thought, hey, know what? This girl is much easier to talk than Helen, why don't I try doing something with her? So I kept talking to Helen, keeping a friendly act up and... agh...

Ok, forget about all those shit. The point is simple. I'm confused. I don't know if I like either of them. I don't know if it's fear or something, but I feel like I DON'T want to do anything with either of them. And I don't know what's going on, ok? Everything is just a blur... My friends are having a shitty time and I can't help them at all, I'm having a shitty time and I can't help ME at all. Last night at the party, I was constantly running around talking to a bunch of people that are NOT my friends, and finally I ended up spending most of my time with a girl that likes me and that I don't like(not that way anyways) and her asshole of a friend, too narrowminded to accept other people's opinion. He kept on telling me, how cool japanese musicians are and how metal is something he detests, because they all have long hair and they aren't as cool as japanese musicians. I think I did try explaining how j-music sucks, since the bands don't care about the music they play, and he actually agreed, by telling me "In j-music, it's the image that makes it good". Well if it's the image, you fucking moron, then it's NOT MUSIC! Go see a fucking movie instead! And then, I tried spending some time with my friends, but that also seemed impossible, cause they had all split into different groups and I couldn't focus enough to decide what to do. Then Helen came and I spent my time talking to her, and bringing myself in that uncomfortable position I always do. And Fani showed up as well, and I tried talking to her, but once again, I realised I can't talk to people if there's not a friend of mine near me, to calm me down... Or something... And... Everything is just a fucking mess... Once again, all I want to do is calm down, see my friends and sleep... I wish I could sleep for a whole year. I know this post really makes no sense, but really, I don't think I can actually tell you something that makes sense right now... Even if I do write down my thoughts, I can guarantee that 2 minutes later, I'll just regret it and end up writing down something completely different, cancelling the first thought. Whatever...

Tool. See ya

Missed me?

I noticed that about... well, I don't know how many of my posts have had the exact same phrase for an introduction. So, here I am, changing that fact. Aren't I awesome?

So, s'up hommies?(can I call you hommies? It sounds kinda weird actually, but, meh, who cares?). Since I've missed an update (first one ever, may I add) I guess this means there'll be two updates this week. Or something... Hmmm, so how do I start? Exciting things DID happen during those two weeks, they did, but where exactly am I supposed to start from?

Well, first of all, WE BOUGHT GUITAR HERO: METALLICA!!!! Me and Ryan, that is (Ryan, still being the nickname of Ilias). Yeah, that happened like 5 days ago. I also bought Assassin's Creed II (which I played for the first time today actually, and it reminds me of a movie. I haven't played enough, but I think I'm really gonna like this. I hope I will actually). I'm also expecting Monkey Island 1 (the remake) this saturday! So I'm expecting a very busy Christmas! I bought 2 books as well, and me and Ilias and Marilena and occasionaly Maria have started Kingdom Hearts 2. Yeah, gaming is suddenly my middle name.

It also seems that I'm getting all...ugh again. For some reason I take things out on my friends and I get irritated really easily. No idea where this is coming from though. Things have gotten really complicated and I can't figure out why, again. And now, I'm not in the mood to write stuff anymore, so goodbye. Perhaps I'll feel better in the next post.

Here are some Metallica

Miaouz

Meeeeh....

Yeah, that's right... Meeeh... Hello everyone... This is me, keeping my promise and posting this week's update on this blog. Cause I really have nothing to say... Actually I do, but I'm not sure what that is... See, for some reason since I've woken up, I'm just down... By the way, just a small notice... I don't want to die. There are times that I might say that I do want to die, but I don't think it's true. I just want... calm-ness stuffs... Like a big empty nothingness in which I float and in which I don't have to worry for anything. And even as I write these, I really feel awkward. Like, seriously, what's the big fucking deal? I don't have any serious worries. Like NONE. Things are pretty cool lately. Things are cool as I speak! I'm just down, for no reason, and it's annoying the hell out of me. I don't want to be emo! I'm behaving like those morons I've been mocking all this time.

So yeah, meeeh and aggh <_<.>

The party all in all was fun... Well not like super fun, like the parties last year, but a huge improvement from the Akai Panda ones...

In other news, JLPT is drawing nearer (like a week from now) and I still haven't started learning the kanji I'm missing. I'll have a super studying session this week for sure. NaNo is kinda dead for me right now, but I've given a promise and I won't go back on my word. This work of mine will reach 10000 words even if it kills me (somehow).

And that's it... Here's some Blind Guardian for you and see you next week.

Death and haircuts

Uuuuugh...

Yeah, that's right... Uuuugh. Another week is almost over... And by almost I mean... Actually, I do mean almost. Hmmm, so what's new for me, huh? Well, I guess... nothing. No, that can't be right... There are some new things. Actually there's this really cool new thing, in which I have some sort of confidence in myself lately. Yeah, now I believe that I may actually be a good dm... That's dungeon master for those of you who do not know what I'm talking about. And a dungeon master is the guy who creates a (fantasy) world and narrates a story for a group of people and has them go through an adventure. Yeah, basic pen and paper rpg lessons here, folks... Anyways, yeah, it seems that my friends are like, super excited about the story we've been playing, so I'm getting excited as well. I may not suck as much as I think. And then there's this new haircut. Seriously, I have no idea where does this confidence comes from, but, lately when I look myself in the mirror, I don't want to break the mirror in front of me (which had happened the last time I cut my hair, but I didn't punch the mirror, I punched the wall next to it, giving myself a hell of a knuckle-pain for a while afterwards). Well, it's not like I'm happy about the way I look, but at least I don't think I'm an abomination of nature anymore... It's a start, right? I mean, I was really surprised with myself.

However, good news are not the only thing I have for you this week (naturally, if there were good news only, it wouldn't be me, right?). Yeah, for some god-knows-why reason, I've been talking to people I don't want to be talking to lately. Crazy-stalker-girl is one of them and annoying-bitchy-bitch is the other one. I even sent annoying-bitchy-bitch my NaNoWriMo text and she read it (correcting me in the process, something that made me want to fucking yell at her, which I didn't, cause I'm a wuss). As a matter of fact annoying-bitchy-bitch isn't all that annoying, however, there's something fishy about her (that's not her fins). She's... weird in a I-don't-know-why-I'm-talking-to-you-but-it's-not-as-bad-as-I-expected-it-to-be... Yeah, I have no idea what I'm going to do... Oh, and there's always this fucking fatass that thinks that me and Marilena are her bestest friends ever... And there's Dorina-chan, who is weird and cool, but I really can't figure her out.

Wait, there was one more thing I wanted to whine about... Uuuummm... Yeah, I can't remember it... On the other hand, there are the "guys" from my japanese class, that I really enjoy spending time with, but I'm also kinda scared of them as well. I have no idea if they like me or not, or what do they want from me, or what kind of consequences will me hanging out with them have... I really have less time in my hands than I would like, and yet, I still spend most of my morning locked in my room doing nothing. Seriously, it's not that this has been a bad week or anything, it's just kinda complicated and meh-ish... Oh, Ryan got his new pc (which is awesome. His monitor is like a freaking television. It's HUGE!). Oh, and by the way: the title is about my NaNo and (obviously) my haircut.

NaNo... Yeah, that's not really going all that well. Although I do like the part that I'm writing right now, it's taking me forever since for one, I can't get myself to sit down and write and two, the two times I have managed to do so, I get really freaked out by my thoughts and mental images I get that I have to quit and go to bed. I mean REALLY freaked out. The night before yesterday, I started shaking and wanted to puke... And then it hit me that, it's doesn't seem so graphic or gore in the text. It's just the image in my head that freaks me out. Brrr... Anyways... I promise that by tonight, I'll have that particular part done and out of my way, and hopefully I'll get back to writing once per day. I know I can't make it to 50000 words by the end of the month , but I've set my goal to 10000 at least. Then, if I see that I've still got ideas, I'll keep on writing this story, until I reach the 50000 words and have a full novel written by myself! (yeah, it's not really going to happen, I think).

And thus ends another of my rants. I'm supposed to be putting a song or something here which I am going to do, but truth be told, I'm not really sure of what to put here... I've been listening to classical music lately, because of the anime I'm watching (Nodame Cantabille) and I've also been listening to the batman theme from the movie and I like neither for this post... So, I'll go with some Megadeth and "When"

Welcome home Sanitarium

I suppose it's getting pretty old and repetitive putting song names as a title, but I find this to be quite fitting, so here it is. What can I say? I'm going crazy...

I don't know if there's some sort of mating season for human beings, but if there is, then this must be it. Cause, seriously, I don't know what the fuck is going on with me. It's either that or the fact that I've spent the whole fucking year (and 2 months now) sex-less. It's almost constantly on my mind, and for the love of god, I've almost done some stupid things. I mean, I knew I was in trouble from the moment that I did whatever I did with that horrible slut, Nausica, but jeez! Seriously, something's wrong with me lately. It could explain all the nerves and the tension I've been having. So, is it all in my mind, or is it some sort of weird thing in the air telling me I need to mate and have children to continue my species? I'd bet on the first one actually, but I'd hope for the second one, so that I wouldn't have to be alone in this...

However, as if to support the idea that something's wrong with my brain lately, the weirdest thing... happened(?) to me the other day. You all know how sometimes you start thinking something and, another voice pops up in your head and you practically have a dialog with yourself, with one side agreeing and the other disagreeing with what you're saying? Well if you don't do that, you now know that I've been doing it. Well, I was walking home the other day when I started talking outloud to... absolutely noone... I was just imagining what I'd say to people I hate, if I had the chance. I literally gave a speech to an invisible Nausica, and all that in english, before realizing what I'm doing. And when I did realise it (and stopped it) I tried to have an internal dialog with myself, which failed! The other me never came out to disagree with me!...

Anyways... I don't think there's something else for me to whine about... I mean, life's been moderate actually. DnD stuffs, Marilena doesn't hate me after all, (my NaNoWriMo text sucks ass but that's to be expected), anime parties and japanese classes, Tekken 6, Kostas left to join the army ... Generally, things have been pretty normal. I'm actually having fun, and I keep on trying to come up with a way to somehow get the girl to notice me (something that doesn't involve jokes about me getting undressed in front of the audience at the cosplay cafe, which seems to be the only thing she wants to tell me, then laugh about it with a friend, then ignore me again). Again though, perhaps I get too excited over her for no reason (as I usually do with those situations). Ugh... Anyways... Really, things have been ok.

Anyways (what is this, 5th time I say that?) Pizza is here, so I'm off. See ya next week

Good evening...
(Let's play a little game. Try to count the times I use awesome in just one post :) )
Is this greeting getting boring? It could be. Perhaps I should create a catchphrase. Something I'll always use as a greeting and it'll be awesome and everyone will know it's me. Yeah, no, that ain't gonna happen :P .

So I come with a surprise today. I'm (almost) happy! Yes! No nagging (yet) and no miserable stories from the crypt that my life has ended up being. Yes, finally, I can confess that, even though my love life downright sucks ass, another part of my life, and that is, the japanese class and generally my social contacts are pretty awesome. I woke up yesterday in a terribly awfull mood. Emo stuffs, really. However as the day advanced, I found myself feeling better and better, with the pinacle of the day (or night, cause it gets really dark after like 5 pm now, so...) being my japanese class. Seems like people don't actually hate me for existing, and some might even like me. I had loads of fun and the (new) girl I like even talked to me! How super special awesome is that? By the way, yes, I've been watching Yu-Gi-Oh : The Abridged Series lately among the other things I do.

And by other things, I come to my second very very cool point of this post. NaNoWriMo. Aha... Yeah, turns out I majorly suck and will never actually manage to finish the story I came up with, but I do try to put pressure on me, and at least write, even if that means writing 100 words per day. Normally I need to put down at least 5000 per day, something that for 5 consecutive days now I've been avoiding. I've barely reached the first 1000 and it's my 5th day. It's a start though... Perhaps there will come a day when I am able to actually reach 2000 in a day. And if that happens during this month, then I'll be pleased. The story I came up with, (and I don't know if I really came up with it, or had the assistance of others. If the second happens, then I wish you all die and burn in hell. I never asked for your fucking help, you losers) seems pretty good in my head, although I don't know if I actually have the talent to go with it. Perhaps I should stop reading mangas and comics and focus on books, to get my head straight, about how literature works and not drawings. Anyways...

I actually have quite a lot to say, but for some reason, I feel very pressured. I need to go and write. And that's something I don't normally say, so really, perhaps NaNo is helping. By the way, I really hate the way SOME people keep on telling me to write, after having read what I've already written. IT'S NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUSSINESS, OK? Try telling me what you think until now, and leave the scheduling to me. (I'm not talking about Marilena btw)

... It's quite the miracle really. I started this post filled with amazingly good mood, and ended up completely angry. Perhaps I should kill my friends and then lock myself in a mental institute... That'll help me keep calm... Probably... Anyways. See ya next week

Video Games | Return of Alice | Debut Teaser

XBox 360 | Playstation 3 | Nintendo Wii

O Death

Good morning everyone. The event is over, and I think I've slept enough. And thus, it is time for an aftermath. When I left "THE MALL" last night I was quite depressed I have to say.

The last day left me with a bad aftertaste. I didn't really do anything, and for the most time, I was running up and down talking to people, mostly strangers that I do not like, or don't care about. I was worrying right out of my skull, trying to summon the courage to go and ask the phone of the girl that I (think) I liked. To add to my worries, my friends who were supposed to bring me my second cosplay outfit for the evening, decided to take their time, leaving me normally dressed for quite a long time. Not their fault really, however, when you're flipping out, blaming others is a good way to avoid going completely crazy. This and that happened, and generally, Saturday was not as good as I had planned it to be. It did have quite the good ending though, with my OTHER friends coming over and taking my mind off things, cause the friends I had around, decided they had spent way too much time with me. I guess in this world, nothing ever goes exactly as planned. Doesn't mean I'm gonna stop planning things out. (Yes, I thought of that yesterday before I went to bed, and I REALLY wanted to say it somewhere and sound cool).

However, a good night's sleep changed my mind, and my view on things. I need to look at the big picture. I seriously had fun, the first two days at least. Even the last day was fun, in its own pecculiar way. Last night I was really dissapointed at myself. I hadn't talked to the girl I wanted to, and I had practically watched her ignore me for the biggest part of the day. Which is something I did right back at her, in order to follow my own code of social behaviour, something that a lot of people seem to ignore. Naturally, I can't expect other to follow MY code, but I always kinda thought that was the normal thing to do. Don't force your way into someone elses's private space, when he/she doesn't seem to want to do the same. Well, I think this pretty much sums up my whole set of rules really :P. Perhaps if I think about it, there are more, but right now this is the one I'm interested in. On Friday, she seemed to seek out my company, whilst yesterday she seemed to simply ignore me. Now, it's not something I really worry about, since in the end, I accomplished many other things during the event. First of all, I made a name for myself. By being part of the group that organised the whole thing, by wearing a well placed and kind social mask, I got accepted by others. We had a huge success, and that opened quite a few doors for the group.

And waking up today, I had one question for myself. Why was I so desperate about that girl? It's not that I don't like her or anything. But I don't think I like her enough to go and beat up myself about not getting her number and being ignored by her. Truth is, what I was really after (the thing she has, that the other girls in my life right now) is my friend's approval. Why have I not done something with Kostas' sister? I've liked her since the last summer. That's 1 year. 1 YEAR! But as soon as I let other people hear what I think, they flood me with their opinions to which I have to comply. Or at least that's what I think I have to do. I believe I have to make others happy, and that's why I can't always do what I want to do. Not that I really know what I want... I mean, is this even true? Do I really let the opinions of others control my life? I guess the answer is somewhere in the middle. Sometimes I do, and sometimes I don't.

The point right now though is not that. Even if I have overcome last night's deppresion, doesn't mean my head is clear enough to know what does it want. (Those thoughts btw are really messing me up. Come to think of it, this is who I am. A person who does not know who he is. I'm someone who seeks the attention of others, always trying to please them, so that he can be accepted by them. But is this the true me? WHO is the true me? Meh, I'm just (not) kidding. I'm probably me, just going through a minor identity crisis). Anyways...

See ya soon

(BTW this probably means there will be no other post for the next week, since I double posted this week :P)

Cosplay cafe. Running like hell. Me. A waiter. Socializing. Dancing. Doing generally stuff and being a moron. I think I actually have people who look up to me now. Ok, so I undressed while moving like a spaz up on a stage. EVERYONE was looking at me. Truth be told. It felt awesome. I wish at some point I can have a life where I do this more often. Can't really write many more stuff, no time (and I need sleep). Also, Nancy doesn't like me. Probably. I'm not really head over heels for her either, but something tells me that can easily change. Anyways... I've got a target and tomorrow's my last chance. Even if I get rejected, at least I'll have tried.

Good night to all!

PS: I danced and took my clothes off to this...

The New Order

Hm. You know, I don't know if it's this particular brand, but I think I just found out that I don't enjoy chocolate. Not in general, just not right now. Which is weird. I thought chocolate was awesome all around th clock. Well, turns out that it's not. So... Good evening three people who read this blog and welcome to another piece of weekly news and spicy insight to the life of George.

Now, this week has been significantly better than the previous two ones, for no particular reason... Well, ok, there are a few reasons, but I don't think they're really important. Or maybe they are. I don't know. You know how sometimes something cheers you up for no particular reason and then, just everything seems to be going better? Yeah, that's what happened to me this week. I mean was it yesterday or the day before that? I was sitting in my room miserable as usual and I thought "It's time to eat. And when you're eating you can't just do nothing." So I took my food in front of my pc and started eating while watching the second season of Dexter(or DeX-Tah as that british chick keeps on calling him and gets me all "ZOMG BRITISH ACCENT I WISH I COULD BE LIKE THAT"... Not like the chick part, just the british accent stuff...) Anyways. Turns out that watching serial killers do their smart stuff and the view of awesome guys slashing people into pieces makes me happy. So who am I to doubt the higher forces of this universe? Cool smart people make me feel good? That's what I'll do from now on then. Although I don't really see the life of a serial killer befitting for me, so I think I'll just go with watching the series.

Speaking of series, season 2 of Darker than Black started airing in Japan a week ago. I watched the first episode last night, and truth be told, I didn't expect much of it. Instead, I got completely excited and almost screamed when the episode ended with a fucking hang-over. And now I'm officially hooked again -_-" . (Speaking of anime, Fairy Tail sucks). And speaking of anime, the cosplay cafe is closing in on us and I'm completely broke. I'll try to borrow some money from my parents and hopefully I'll pay some debts that way, but I'll still be broke for the rest of the month. And next months seems pretty bad as well (financially speaking). On the (almost) bright side of stuff me and Marilou worked out that japanese class thingy, so even if it didn't turn out as awesome as it could (or should) well, it still seems ok. We'll be on seperate classes (which I regret) but I'll have her bring her notes to me, so that I can study cause my sensei doesn't seem as able as hers. Oh, I forgot to mention, I tried out the butler suit (kinda). I think I look pretty ok in it. Hopefully girls will think so too, cause as time passes, I start realizing that trully I've been alone for way too fucking long. And even though I've kinda dealt with the misery of being alone lately, it's starting to affect Ryan as well, and as if often happens, his misery becomes my misery. (So as you can guess, even if the title says Blind Guardian, the song'll be MetallicA, as a tribute to my friend)

Well, other than financial problems, a certain amount of self-doubting (which is probably a permanent point in my personality by now) and quite a few parent-nagging, this has been a fine week for me. More ups than downs I must say. And I've ran out of things to say for some reason... Anyways... (oh, Blind Guardian addiction came back. Listening to their latest album. Totally not as bad as I thought)

One of those days

You know, it's not really unusual for me to feel like crap. Actually, it happens all the time. I don't really think I'm a pessimist or anything, and I'm pretty sure there's nothing wrong with me (like, I don't have any sort of mental illness, like depression or anything). So why do I keep on waking up and feeling like this? Angry, miserable, alone. And seriously, lately, life's been getting considerably better... I mean, a (crazy) girl confessed, another girl had her friend ask me what do I think of her (and that's like she's asking me to ask her out, right?) and there is this other girl that I secretely like but I won't admit cause she's too young. Generally my love life is showing signs of improvement. And my friends have like, completely returned, so supposedely my life's getting back on track and everything should be awesome. So why the hell am I feeling particularly un-awesome?

Now, a friend of mine told me once, that people are always trying to create problems out of ordinary situations, just to escape the boredom of everyday life. Well, if that's true, then I'm like, REALLY bored. Oh! I forgot to mention that the crazy girl came to MY HOUSE and almost had sex with me, and then we were together for a day and that kinda gave me the courage to give her my final answer, a BIG FAT (kinda like her ass) "NO WE CAN'T BE TOGETHER". Yeah, ever since then, she's a little edgy, but she'll get over me. I've gotten over people who were slutier than me, so she can do it too. Oh, and did I tell you about what else's been troubling me? Japanese classes. They start next week, and the last thing I need right now are douchebags(the anti-g team) in my class, talking to the only friend I'll have in there and leaving me alone to die in a pool of my own piss and blood...

In other news, I'm feeling slightly more confident about my looks (since suddenly girls are asking about me (Why the hell did I have to reach my 21st year of life for girls to realize I exist?) so the idea of me cosplaying cool characters now seems... excellent! I get to be Riku, and a cool butler, and Nero as well from DMC4. And I know that this ranting will probably make no sense to anyone who reads this, but truth is I started typing when I was all miserable this morning and now it's afternoon and I've spent like, tons of hours with a guy creating the waraji shoes for his/ours Bleach cosplay. It was pretty fun actually and it did cheer me up, since we did quite the fantastic job. I mean, I never actually expected we would make them, but we did and they're really good.

A thing that's been worrying me lately is whether or not I have become (more) antisocial than usual. I can't stand seeing most of the people I used to call friends once and I can't figure out if that's my fault or theirs. And to top everything off, now my gaming addiction returned, leaving me with 4 games I need to finish and about 4 others I want to buy... And YES I KNOW I'M NOT MAKING ANY SENSE, ok!? I'm just trying to fit everything that's happened to me in one week (which are surprisingly a lot) into one text and things just keep on popping into my head (and I'm too lazy to put everything in the correct order). Uuuummmm, I had this one thing I wanted to tell you people, but I just keep on forgetting. Well, while my head is working on that here's a thought: Reeny, are you ok? There has been no letter and for some weird reason I feel like you've been avoiding me. Which would be normal and everything, but I've come to realise that I'm not really good at understanding those situations, so, if you are indeed avoiding me, telling me to stay out of your life or something will be helping you achieve your purpose faster. Oh! I remembered! We've started this new rpg session with some friends and I think I'm sucking pretty bad as a dm(dungeon master). I don't know if something's happened to me, but I may be losing my talent as a guy with a great imagination... Lately I've just been copying and recycling ideas... *sigh*... There might really be something wrong with me... Anyways... Gotta go... See ya all next week...

(Here's a tekken 6 trailer. The theme has been stuck in my head for like 2 days now)

Video Games | Tekken 6 | Xbox 360 Title Preview: Spring 2009 Trailer

XBox 360 | Playstation 3 | Nintendo Wii

Sad But True

-Ahem-

Yeah, well, you all know about how life has its ups and downs, right? For some twisted reason, that I have yet to pinpoint, the happy days never seem to last. Now, I've been thinking. This could just be me, right? I mean, it's not like I'm starving to death or anything. It's not like life is actually hard on me. However, why do I keep on looking only at the downside of things? I should be happy, right? Things have been going ok for me. I mean, there's no more trouble with my friends, college is starting as well, so I won't have to hear my dear parents nagging all day long (just for the few hours I'll be spending at home), japanese classes are starting as well. Yes, life has been finally getting back on the right track.

So why the FUCK am I still feeling down? Is it because of the pressure? It could be. But it's not! I'll tell you why I'm feeling down. CRAZY GIRLS HITTING ON ME AND NOT BACKING DOWN CAUSE I'M TOO MUCH OF A COWARD TO TELL THEM "I DON'T LIKE YOU" IN THEIR FACE IS WHAT'S BEEN MAKING ME FEEL DOWN! God, when did I lose my ability to not care about other people? (Actually was that ability ever mine, in the first place?). And being the idiot that I am, I can't keep my mouth shut and not act like I kinda care about her either. I don't know what that means really about me. That I'm a coward? That I enjoy the attention I'm getting from her even if I can't really do the same thing back? Perhaps both... But whatever it is I'm doing, I really need to put an end to it. People are starting to tell me I'm becoming a better person lately. ME! A good person! A caring person! I mean, I spent years, trying to create the image of an evil person. Or at least a neutral one... And it's not like I really am a bad person (I think)... Whatever!Agh... I don't like this situation one bit. Problem is, I'm the one who created it and I'm the ONLY ONE who can get me out of there. So it's pretty pointless of me to nag about it. Actually, no, it's not... I feel better already. God, I should have started a blog ages ago... Anyways

In other news, my Metallica addiction came back, stronger than ever, making me bang my head like an idiot when I'm home alone (like : now) and listening to their live album I just downloaded. Here is a small gift (I hope this works, Irene does it all the time) At least Metallica always make me feel better.


Anyways... I promised some of my stories in the last post, so being a man of my word, here is one...

-You Know Anna…I can’t really remember how long I’ve been here

- So what? Don’t tell me you want to leave, huh?

-... It’s just that… Don’t you ever feel regret?

-…No. I don’t. And I don’t like this conversation either. I’m going back

-Anna…

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The boy scratched the back of his head and opened his eyes. That dream again, huh? He asked himself as he pulled the sheets and got up, tiredly. He looked around at the mess that he called his home. It was in fact, a rather peculiar home, or at least that’s what we would say if we saw it. First of all the whole place was made from huge branches of trees, tied together with each other, creating the floor and walls, the way they bent and twisted. As if someone with tremendous strength had caught the branches of a huge tree and had created the house. Then there was the roof… That was a magnificent piece of work. The roof was a circular glass, which had smaller branches running over it, creating fascinating designs, twisting and turning and making the morning shadows play in Kieran’s eyes. Our hero, however, did not pay much attention to those things. He simply looked up at the sky, at the dawning sun and the wandering clouds and sighed. He looked at the back of his palm, to the weird shaped tattoo the masters had given him. It had shrank even more… He closed his eyes for a minute and muttered a few words, before opening them again. They were shining with a light blue aura and he looked at the tattoo again. He averted his eyes and closed them, making a grimace, as if he had seen something horrible…The aura disappeared from his eyes and he entered the bathroom for his morning routine…

Yeah... so, see you next week three people who read this...

1987 - The year of the bunny

People born in the Year of the Rabbit are articulate, talented, and ambitious. They are virtuous, reserved, and have excellent taste. Rabbit people are admired, trusted, and are often financially lucky. They are fond of gossip but are tactful and generally kind. Rabbit people seldom lose their temper. They are clever at business and being conscientious, never back out of a contract. They would make good gamblers for they have the uncanny gift of choosing the right thing. However, they seldom gamble, as they are conservative and wise. They are most compatible with those born in the years of the Sheep, Pig, and Dog.

Those are the words that Natsuki Takaya-san uses to describe me, based on the chinese horoscope. Now, let me tell you a little secret. I don't really believe in horoscopes. However, I do adore Fruits Basket, so let me give you a little introduction of who I am, what is this blog all about and why did I choose this weird title. Hopefully, everything will be clear when I finish this first post.

My name is George, I'm 21 years old and I live in Greece. I guess I'm an average person, 180 cm tall, 67 kilos, blue eyes, brown-blond hair and I wear glasses cause my eyesight betrayed me by the age of 16. I'm in college, studying computer sciences, however that hasn't been working for me until now. Probably because of my irresponsible nature, I guess. I'm really more of a "I-like-to-have-fun-so-I'll-do-the-boring-stuff-later" person. I don't know what caused it, however, I don't seem to be able to change who I am. I enjoy spending time with my friends, no matter what we're doing. Other than that, I enjoy books and manga, anime and films, music and gaming. I'm a bit of a show-off and it's pretty stupid most of the times. I've got a good sense of humour(or so I'm told) and I enjoy making others laugh. Some of my friends call me a social person, but I don't know if that's true. I do find it interesting, meeting new people, but I'm also kind of arrogant and an elitist, so most of the times I end up rejecting others without really getting to know them.

Well, that's who I am. I may have forgotten a few things, here and there, but I'm sure I'll cover them while ranting here. Back to the bunnies (and the blood), I am not an emo. I do not cut myself and I don't really like blood (I'm not afraid of it either). I just thought it sounded pretty cool, so it's up there as a title, for now. There is another reason I chose this title as well, but I think I'll let you know later on this post.I think I'll try to keep this blog, and I'll even try to update it often... Ok, as a matter of fact, there is a reason for this title. Lately, I've been pretty miserable (But I really don't cut myself). I think I know why and, even though it's embarassing, I'm hoping that this blog will never reach the eyes of people I don't want to open up to(also, they probably don't care about what I have to say, so...). This past year has been quite... weird for me. I got into fights with, met new people, did new things. I got rejected and I got accepted by people and I rejected and I accepted people. All in all, as a matter of fact, right now, I'm actually a lot better than I was 2 months ago. The sadness I'm supposed to be feeling, comes and goes, and it's not really all that serious of a reason what causes it. If you really want to know what it is (please don't make fun of me) it's the lack of attention. It's been getting harder and harder to keep the people around me focused on me, and that's scaring me. However, truth is, that I'm just asking for too much. My friends are there as always, and I've been too busy dwelling in my own self-pity to notice it. For that I apologise to them.

Now, this is a blog, and even though everyone reading this, should already know, I'm actually a person with quite the imagination. It's one of the major reasons that manga and anime are such a big part of my life. When I was younger I believed this world to be boring. Growing up, I've realised that such a thing is not true. Yes, the worlds I've been imagining, of magic and adventure are certainly interesting, but that doesn't make our world a boring place. I know now, there are ways of making this world, just as interesting. Friendship, love and art is needed, and by combining the three (and adding quite a bit of humour and laughs) you can have the interesting world you need. Now, this all sounds vague and perhaps even gay (:P) but I do have a point. I no longer feel the need to dissapear and reappear in a different world. I find it much better now to just gather with my friends and have a session of Dungeons and Dragons (or Anime d20). Sure, I don't carry a sword, and I can't burn someone with my magic, but I do have fun and we all enjoy ourselves. And as you can see, slowly, by reading this blog, you begin to find out what a huge nerd I am. I also have a dream. It's a geeky dream, and one that I don't think it'll ever come to be, but it's there, and sometimes, when it's fun for me, I strive towards making it real. That dream is to write. I like to express myself and the worlds that I imagine through words. I love it when people read or hear the stories I come up with, and I adore it when they get excited by them. So, from times to times, I hope I'll summon the courage to post a few of the stories I've worked on here, on this blog.

I think that's all I wanted to tell you all, for now. I still haven't explained the title though, and that's kind of unfair. Ok, secret truth. I really like Fruits Basket. Like, a lot... And I guess, I'm secretely proud of being born on the year of the rabbit, even though, if you ever ask me in person I'll try to act all cool and deny it. As for the blood... That really reflected my emo mood when I began writing this post, but now, I feel relieved (probably because confessing my feelings took a huge burden of me), so it doesn't really fit the title anymore. However it's still cool and dark, so I'll leave it there =] .

Good day/night to all