You know, it's not really unusual for me to feel like crap. Actually, it happens all the time. I don't really think I'm a pessimist or anything, and I'm pretty sure there's nothing wrong with me (like, I don't have any sort of mental illness, like depression or anything). So why do I keep on waking up and feeling like this? Angry, miserable, alone. And seriously, lately, life's been getting considerably better... I mean, a (crazy) girl confessed, another girl had her friend ask me what do I think of her (and that's like she's asking me to ask her out, right?) and there is this other girl that I secretely like but I won't admit cause she's too young. Generally my love life is showing signs of improvement. And my friends have like, completely returned, so supposedely my life's getting back on track and everything should be awesome. So why the hell am I feeling particularly un-awesome?
Now, a friend of mine told me once, that people are always trying to create problems out of ordinary situations, just to escape the boredom of everyday life. Well, if that's true, then I'm like, REALLY bored. Oh! I forgot to mention that the crazy girl came to MY HOUSE and almost had sex with me, and then we were together for a day and that kinda gave me the courage to give her my final answer, a BIG FAT (kinda like her ass) "NO WE CAN'T BE TOGETHER". Yeah, ever since then, she's a little edgy, but she'll get over me. I've gotten over people who were slutier than me, so she can do it too. Oh, and did I tell you about what else's been troubling me? Japanese classes. They start next week, and the last thing I need right now are douchebags(the anti-g team) in my class, talking to the only friend I'll have in there and leaving me alone to die in a pool of my own piss and blood...
In other news, I'm feeling slightly more confident about my looks (since suddenly girls are asking about me (Why the hell did I have to reach my 21st year of life for girls to realize I exist?) so the idea of me cosplaying cool characters now seems... excellent! I get to be Riku, and a cool butler, and Nero as well from DMC4. And I know that this ranting will probably make no sense to anyone who reads this, but truth is I started typing when I was all miserable this morning and now it's afternoon and I've spent like, tons of hours with a guy creating the waraji shoes for his/ours Bleach cosplay. It was pretty fun actually and it did cheer me up, since we did quite the fantastic job. I mean, I never actually expected we would make them, but we did and they're really good.
A thing that's been worrying me lately is whether or not I have become (more) antisocial than usual. I can't stand seeing most of the people I used to call friends once and I can't figure out if that's my fault or theirs. And to top everything off, now my gaming addiction returned, leaving me with 4 games I need to finish and about 4 others I want to buy... And YES I KNOW I'M NOT MAKING ANY SENSE, ok!? I'm just trying to fit everything that's happened to me in one week (which are surprisingly a lot) into one text and things just keep on popping into my head (and I'm too lazy to put everything in the correct order). Uuuummmm, I had this one thing I wanted to tell you people, but I just keep on forgetting. Well, while my head is working on that here's a thought: Reeny, are you ok? There has been no letter and for some weird reason I feel like you've been avoiding me. Which would be normal and everything, but I've come to realise that I'm not really good at understanding those situations, so, if you are indeed avoiding me, telling me to stay out of your life or something will be helping you achieve your purpose faster. Oh! I remembered! We've started this new rpg session with some friends and I think I'm sucking pretty bad as a dm(dungeon master). I don't know if something's happened to me, but I may be losing my talent as a guy with a great imagination... Lately I've just been copying and recycling ideas... *sigh*... There might really be something wrong with me... Anyways... Gotta go... See ya all next week...
(Here's a tekken 6 trailer. The theme has been stuck in my head for like 2 days now)
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