I don't know if there's some sort of mating season for human beings, but if there is, then this must be it. Cause, seriously, I don't know what the fuck is going on with me. It's either that or the fact that I've spent the whole fucking year (and 2 months now) sex-less. It's almost constantly on my mind, and for the love of god, I've almost done some stupid things. I mean, I knew I was in trouble from the moment that I did whatever I did with that horrible slut, Nausica, but jeez! Seriously, something's wrong with me lately. It could explain all the nerves and the tension I've been having. So, is it all in my mind, or is it some sort of weird thing in the air telling me I need to mate and have children to continue my species? I'd bet on the first one actually, but I'd hope for the second one, so that I wouldn't have to be alone in this...
However, as if to support the idea that something's wrong with my brain lately, the weirdest thing... happened(?) to me the other day. You all know how sometimes you start thinking something and, another voice pops up in your head and you practically have a dialog with yourself, with one side agreeing and the other disagreeing with what you're saying? Well if you don't do that, you now know that I've been doing it. Well, I was walking home the other day when I started talking outloud to... absolutely noone... I was just imagining what I'd say to people I hate, if I had the chance. I literally gave a speech to an invisible Nausica, and all that in english, before realizing what I'm doing. And when I did realise it (and stopped it) I tried to have an internal dialog with myself, which failed! The other me never came out to disagree with me!...
Anyways... I don't think there's something else for me to whine about... I mean, life's been moderate actually. DnD stuffs, Marilena doesn't hate me after all, (my NaNoWriMo text sucks ass but that's to be expected), anime parties and japanese classes, Tekken 6, Kostas left to join the army ... Generally, things have been pretty normal. I'm actually having fun, and I keep on trying to come up with a way to somehow get the girl to notice me (something that doesn't involve jokes about me getting undressed in front of the audience at the cosplay cafe, which seems to be the only thing she wants to tell me, then laugh about it with a friend, then ignore me again). Again though, perhaps I get too excited over her for no reason (as I usually do with those situations). Ugh... Anyways... Really, things have been ok.
Anyways (what is this, 5th time I say that?) Pizza is here, so I'm off. See ya next week
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