Can I cast a spell ?

And make everyone's problems dissapear?

No... I don't think I can. But lately I'm not really ok... For some reason I feel extraordinary pressure on my shoulders. Everyone has problems... And I need to be there for everyone. So lately, other people's problems are my problems. I can't find sometime for myself. I just need to relax. Everyone has put so much faith on me. Everyone loves me and wants me to help them. And that's a good thing. I want to help them. But I feel that I can't do it... Sorry... I can't really put my thoughts in order lately. Cause, naturally I've got problems of my own... And I can't figure out what do I want to do with them. I can't... cope with people who refuse to see the light of logic. And am I the light of logic? Well, to be frank I'd like to say yes. But it most probably isn't true. For some reason, perhaps it has something to do with me always being so obsessed over "being logical", I always see that my opinions have a shred of logic in them. I'm not completely based on emotions and personal judgements. That, of course, could be just an illusion, created by me, so that I can justify my every action and decision. True... That may be true...

However, I still fail to see how I'm wrong in certain subjects and others are not. Could it be that I'm irational and others are not? Could it be that simply everyone sees the world like I do? I mean, of course, it's natural to think that you're the logical one in a disagreement... However, where do they base their logical arguements? When your arguement is simply "Trust me, I know better" how can I believe they're on my level of thinking, or that they're not simply trying to find comfort in a selfish little image of the world that suits them, instead of facing reality?

I don't know what I'm talking about. Really... I'm just typing and going off to a random direction, trying to chase after a problem in my mind and explaining nothing, sounding like some sort of tyrant with an absolute kind of thinking. Whatever... I hope that I'm a good person. I pray that I'm as smart as I want to think that I am. I need to be as mature as others need me to be and as clear-headed and with a just view of the world as I want to be...

Thank you all

The inevitable return of the great white me

Oh, hello! Remember when I updated my blog? Neither do I!

So, yeah, I'm still alive... I haven't forgotten about this place, and the truth is I haven't been running all day (which would be a convinient excuse), nor have I broken an arm or somethin (although I might have, today). I've just... being lazing around and been... well, me. Sorry for taking so long...

Well, a lot of things happened. I got into fights, I argued with friends, I got in love, I tried to hide it, I got into more fights, I published a magazine about j-stuff with the Umi&Sora peoples, I met new people, I figured out why do girls hit on me, I got a girlfriend and feel for her hard and fast and I got my Metallica ticket... I've watched anime, I've played some dnd, I've prepared a whole campaign (and I got news that my co-dm guy will abandon me for some time to go to... Holland? Sweden? Someplace cold, anyways), I've read 3 books and continuing... Really, it's not like I've been lazying around all day.

To be frank, I realised something about this blog. Perhaps I should have renamed it into "George's Whiny Updates" or something. All I've ever posted here is my pathetic self-pity. Not that this is gonna change, of course... Just pointing it out... Anyways... It's late and I don't really know what else to say, other than... I'm back bitches...

Also, for some reason, Jenny, this is for you