I'm going to be completely forward and warn you that I have no idea of what should I be writing here right now. How am I? Well, I'm fine I guess. Breaking up didn't really mean anything to me, seeing as it was too soon (and the fact that we never kissed helped quite a bit). So yeah, in the end, I managed to not fall for her. Agh... Of course, that brings me right back where I started. I'm once again alone, and will stay like that for... well, forever to be frank. Good thing is that things with me and Marilena and Ryan are (almost) back to normal. So I was out talking with Marilena a few days back, when she asked me a question I haven't heard in a year (from her).
"Why do you need/want a girlfriend anyways?"
It kinda hit me then, that I didn't know what to say. Thinking about it now, I think I know the answer. Aside from the obvious sexual satisfaction part that a girlfriend should and would provide I ask myself. What do I need her for? Do I need new friends? No, that's certainly not it. I've got my share of friends and, thank god, I'm having the best of times with them. On the other hand, it's true that I'm the kind of guy who really enjoys attention and having people accept me is something I'm always into. Now I need to explain a few things here, probably. What am I looking for in a girl (aside from huge breasts). I want a girl that I can hang out with. Like naturally. I'm looking for a friend. A person who will understand and probably share my passion for whatever crazy shit I'm into. Weirdest thing is, when I finally got in a relationship (with Jenny, like years ago) I was proven completely wrong. Me and Jenny had very few things in common yet we stayed together for 2 years. Bah... Whatever. The last year was a really boring one anyways.
To a completely unrelated note, my fantasy addiction which had gone down a bit, has started to climb back up, thanks to my favourite band ever. And since I've recently spent quite a lot of money on Dungeons and Dragons books, I think I'll go read some fantasy books to quench my thirst for adventure,magic, dragons and swords. See ya all laters. ;)