I've been with my girlfriend for 9 months now. I'm in love with her. A lot. As a matter of fact, I'm happy. I can't really recall the last time I was so happy, just being with someone. Things are... awesome. There are difficulties, sure, like the fact that we have to spend an hour using public transportations to see each other and we've got very few time for ourselves since we both live with our parents (and our parents don't really feel like giving us a break -__-(although to be fair, they try to do so))
And I've been actually going to classes! I think I know Micro-Electronics now! Sort of... And I went to Sweden! Aaaaaand, a lot has changed. Although I don't know what should I start with. Whatever... I'm just going to post this for now and see where things take me. I might start posting here again, although, lately, I'm in the mood for other stuff than my usual whining. Perhaps because I'm finally happy. You see, I was reading an older post and GOD WAS I ALWAYS SUCH A FUCKING WHINER? Seriously, this has got to stop. From now on, I'll try to whine as less as humanly possible. See ya all!
No... I don't think I can. But lately I'm not really ok... For some reason I feel extraordinary pressure on my shoulders. Everyone has problems... And I need to be there for everyone. So lately, other people's problems are my problems. I can't find sometime for myself. I just need to relax. Everyone has put so much faith on me. Everyone loves me and wants me to help them. And that's a good thing. I want to help them. But I feel that I can't do it... Sorry... I can't really put my thoughts in order lately. Cause, naturally I've got problems of my own... And I can't figure out what do I want to do with them. I can't... cope with people who refuse to see the light of logic. And am I the light of logic? Well, to be frank I'd like to say yes. But it most probably isn't true. For some reason, perhaps it has something to do with me always being so obsessed over "being logical", I always see that my opinions have a shred of logic in them. I'm not completely based on emotions and personal judgements. That, of course, could be just an illusion, created by me, so that I can justify my every action and decision. True... That may be true...
However, I still fail to see how I'm wrong in certain subjects and others are not. Could it be that I'm irational and others are not? Could it be that simply everyone sees the world like I do? I mean, of course, it's natural to think that you're the logical one in a disagreement... However, where do they base their logical arguements? When your arguement is simply "Trust me, I know better" how can I believe they're on my level of thinking, or that they're not simply trying to find comfort in a selfish little image of the world that suits them, instead of facing reality?
I don't know what I'm talking about. Really... I'm just typing and going off to a random direction, trying to chase after a problem in my mind and explaining nothing, sounding like some sort of tyrant with an absolute kind of thinking. Whatever... I hope that I'm a good person. I pray that I'm as smart as I want to think that I am. I need to be as mature as others need me to be and as clear-headed and with a just view of the world as I want to be...
Oh, hello! Remember when I updated my blog? Neither do I!
So, yeah, I'm still alive... I haven't forgotten about this place, and the truth is I haven't been running all day (which would be a convinient excuse), nor have I broken an arm or somethin (although I might have, today). I've just... being lazing around and been... well, me. Sorry for taking so long...
Well, a lot of things happened. I got into fights, I argued with friends, I got in love, I tried to hide it, I got into more fights, I published a magazine about j-stuff with the Umi&Sora peoples, I met new people, I figured out why do girls hit on me, I got a girlfriend and feel for her hard and fast and I got my Metallica ticket... I've watched anime, I've played some dnd, I've prepared a whole campaign (and I got news that my co-dm guy will abandon me for some time to go to... Holland? Sweden? Someplace cold, anyways), I've read 3 books and continuing... Really, it's not like I've been lazying around all day.
To be frank, I realised something about this blog. Perhaps I should have renamed it into "George's Whiny Updates" or something. All I've ever posted here is my pathetic self-pity. Not that this is gonna change, of course... Just pointing it out... Anyways... It's late and I don't really know what else to say, other than... I'm back bitches...
2 weeks since the last update... Yeah, I suck, but, things have been good, so I can't really say I'm as frustrated as I usually am when I miss an update. So, what's new? Well, tons of things, really -_-.
First of all, I got a girlfriend. Through an extremely complicated situation though, but it HAS happened. And it's kind of weird really, cause things seem to be ok. Like, more than ok. Awesome. Well, more than awesome really... Agh. Yeah, I know, people will still tell me the same thing I've been saying myself. "Don't fall for her/Be careful". Yeah, might be a bit too late for that, to be frank, but I AM trying to be... careful. Sometimes... It's a weird situation. One I'd like to talk with one of my friends in private... But I can never seem to find the proper... timing? Yeah....
Well, I'm not going to spend all of my time on one topic, I'm just going to sum those past weeks of news for you. We're in a somewhat tight spot, concerning financial affairs right now, although I did receive a generous bonus from my trip to my hometown recently. I think I'm going to save most of that money, though I have no idea what for am I going to be saving them. It's not like there are no things I want to buy. There are actually tons of things I want -_-. Anyways...
Other than that, college things are going lousy, as usual. The project I've dreamt of with Ryan suddenly seems a bit too... out of reach, but for no reason am I abandoning it. Noldor WILL come to life, hopefully soon. Well, soon-ish, that is... AAAAAnyways, d&d project is also on the move, a bit slower than I'd have hoped, but at least it IS moving, which is a huge plus for me... I can't really understand the others though. One minute they seem super excited, and the next they're like... pissed off or something. And John seems to have a weird effect on some of my friends, for reasons I STILL don't understand. Perhaps I'm too dazzled by having found him to notice any flaws he might have. But I'm having a blast everytime I spend time with him, so I can't see their problem....
Other than that... Book and Blind Guardian addiction! I've finished 2 books in the last month and a half and started reading another one. I've also read like quite a few sourcebooks for D&D (but in the sporadic kinda way you read a sourcebook. Like 2 paragraphs here, 10 pages there and stuff... Whatever you need or are interested in at a certain moment). And of course Blind Guardian cause nothing's better than them. (so you can easily guess what's going to be your present today). Oh, and I'm getting closer to finishing Assassin's Creed II which is cool, cause, when Ryan gets back, he'll start playing God of War III and it's the next must-play I have. I'm thinking about buying it, at some point really... Anyways...
My girlfriend is coming over and she's never eaten OREOs, so I've gotta go buy OREOs and milk, to surprise her... See ya all. Thanks for reading (if you're reading) ;)
I've been thinking of making this post for quite a long time, however for some reason, I've kept on postponing it. Well, the time for it is here! I don't know why, but lately I can't stop questioning myself and the course of my actions. I don't know what it all means and to be frank, I don't really care. I'm tired of asking and regretting every little thing. I'm sick and honestly tired! So, now, you all learn who I am and it's a lesson best learned well!
Bla bla bla, I'm a king bla bla. I'll post again tommorow
It's been a while, hasn't it? Yes, as a matter of fact, I missed an update... AGAIN!!
I'm sorry for that. Lately, things have been... well, mediocre, which is a lot better than BLEH or Meeeeh (that has been my constant mood since I've started this blog). What does mediocre mean? Well, it means that the thing that's been troubling me like forever (or rather, this past year and a haf) is no longer a priority. I don't feel the NEED to find a girlfriend. I don't even think I want one. The responsibilities and everything... Yeah, they're probably not for me, not right now. Not that there are not girls that I find attractive, that is. No, that would be a misunderstanding, for lately, my need for sex is kinda driving me crazy. And god, I hope I'm not disguisting people by saying those things...
Whatever... On other news, I've bought a bunch of D&D 3.5 edition books and somehow I've managed to gather a group of people, hungercrazed for some rpg. I think they might kill me and rip me to shreds, then feed on me, in case I don't hurry and manage to get the game set and rolling soon. They'll probably need a taste of role-playing, even if that taste is the flesh of a dungeon-master. Oh! I've also got a few new projects concerning the internets!! Yes, I think I'll start building myself a site, if I manage to get the know-how, somehow. An actual site that is, with paid server space and a domain name and everything! The topic of the site is still a secret but if it helps, it's got to do with rp-ing.
On a completely unrelated note, I think I really really need to start working out again. I'm quite thin, if I start losing what little muscle there is, I think I'll become completely unattractive. Oh, speaking of unattractiveness, I figured out what else is ugly about me! That mole I have like under my mouth. That thing that's between my lips and my chin? Yeah, I've gotten used to it, but people who meet me must be completely disguisted. I think surgery can be done to have those things removed, and if it's not expensive I might consider it...
Now, there are a lot of things I can tell you here, like, why do I think I'm ugly again, but I figure that my friends are a more pressing matter. RYAN is finally doing better and is no longer the captive of the witch. Everyone else though is a mess. Jim is/has falling/fallen hard for a girl he seems to have no chances with (though if you ask him, I'm just talking shit, cause he's too cool and what I'm telling you is lies) and Maria is... Well, she's being typical her, but working towards a better her, really since, for some reason (me), she has began having SOCIAL relationships with people. I think I'll give her a medal or something. Marilena... Well, she's also her, having fun and dealing with everyone else's problems and not her own. Not that she actually seems to have any problems lately, which is a good thing. Have I mentioned I love her? She's my sister! And she totally doesn't hate me, after all! ^_^
Well, that would be the end of today's briefing! Here's a little something... different that usual!
Absolutely nothing to report this week! Yay me! Life is boring(kinda). Well, not really boring, but nothing... new is happening. I'm not fighting with any of my friends, I'm never going to get a girlfriend and I'm always going to be a loser.
You know, I was thinking the other night... Wait, as a matter of fact it wasn't night at all, it was evening and I was walking to the Metro station alone. Anyways... I was thinking that there is NOTHING special about me. Like, really nothing! I once had hope that I might have some sort of talent, in writing perhaps, but as of late, I'm completely convinced that there is not an ounce of it in me. By the way, if you're wondering what an ounce is, it's a metric system for weight. 1 ounce is 28 grams, or something. Now, most of you... Well, I say most of you, but there are actually about 3 or 4 people who read this, tops... Anyways, you guys won't ever tell me that I'm not talentend, but fact is that I'm not. I'm THE most mediocre guy, on the PLANET!
Not that I care actually... At least I've got friends. But back then (when it occured to me) it was a bit disturbing... Anyways... Really not in the mood to say much more. Sorry I missed an update. I'll make it up to yous.
